Holiday means nothing

Yeah finally I could find time to invest on me. Bu t I failed again.
Am I the loser?
Am I depressed?
Am I confused?
OR NONE.

I found a danger to myself, may be I'm trying to enliven my life. Or what?
Do you still keep yourself closer to the fire, even you are sure that you will hurt?
Me??

???????? is the answer.

Working...

I'm really tired of working I need to breath. Hopefully soon...

How much I am depressed. I even do not want to talk mself or question myself about what's going on about me.
Lost feelings unfortunately good ones. "Secret" I am the last standing woman on earth to peform the hints under the "secret".

Will I be OK again after a break. OR will it be a permenant silence?

it's over now

it's over now

it's over.

as I promised to myself :)

midnight

it's midnight but I couldn't sleep yet.

Still thinkin.. Thinkin somenone in the past and his present.

Am I obssessed by this idea??

Hope to sleep.

Everything's gonna be alright in the morning.

my soul

my soul is black today.

I am not upset but I'm nervous and my nerve allergy emerged again.
Today I learnt that my..., someone in the past has found someone to himself and this is present.

I am a little bit disappointed but I know I forgot someone in the past.

I'm sure I will be OK tomorrow but I can't promise for today.

Anyway if I write I feel much better that's why I start blogging...